Never said I wasn't an adult, but I don't have the responsibilities that qualify me as an adult in anyone else's eyes which is why I don't call myself an "adult". Not yet at least. I can grasp these concepts, they aren't hard.
You understand a majority of my using and alcohol abuse carried on because I had not only failed my parents, friends, teachers, etc but myself with the expectations of going to a real 4-year college right out of highschool?
I was a 2 sport Varsity athelete with AP and Honor's classes, believe me I spent a lot of time dicking around and beating myself the fuck up for dicking around so much. Don't tell me what I can and can't grasp when you don't even fucking know me.
Even better, you claim to understand yet still sit on your hands. I don't know which is worse, complete ignorance or smug self-destruction. I'm not knocking on your efforts to get employed, they exist as sandcastles do, minimally made and with short term in mind. I have no doubt that you want to be employed, that you want a solid income with a place to call your own, but I'm saying you obviously don't want it enough. If you did, you wouldn't be shooting yourself in the foot as you do, or here as often as you are. You spit a mad story of redemption, but it's just that still, a story. Forgive us for not buying it.
Short term? You think I plan on workin at these places for a month or some shit? What are you even saying right now?
I can't start workin this week because of my conflicting schedule with my Driver's Ed class. Last drug/substance I used was alcohol and that was Monday night and I had a whopping 2 shots of some Black Label...
I'm not moving mountains over here so to speak but I'm definitely right where I need to be as opposed to the habitual smoking habit I had a few weeks ago with no employment in site and no actual schedule to my day.
I swear some of ya really just disregard everything I post and nitpick at the negative things. Like, I'm talkin to a brick fuckin wall here.
A MAJAORITY of the ignorant shit I've posted where things that happened last Summer and the years before that dating all the way back to 2010. I'm not repeating myself again, it's in a post I posted earlier. It's nothing but talking points, I really don't do that much hood shit anymore besides a once and or twice a year lick and that's about it if you don't count gettin fucked up for fun.
Other than that, I currently live a relatively quiet life. Only thing that's an issue is I've burned so many bridges over the past couple years and I'm really good at "goin off the grid" so I just gotta be vigilante when I'm out in public.
I'm mainly out in public to play ball, smoke/drink, and or socialize with people. Shit happens here and there when I see some people, but it's normally nothin but a fist fight or me gettin jumped or some stupid shit like that. That's why I plan on gettin a whole new gaming set-up soon and just start gaming hardbody again, along with goin to the gym and doin those things in my free time instead of smoking/drinking and being dragged to parties and other places where I'm more than likely to run into people I have issues with.
Crazy how much I have to explain myself but I guess it makes sense seeing as I've posted nothing but ignorant content. Either way, I'm really not as bad as some of you think I am, but that's not to say I'm talkin out my ass about certain matters.
Already said I'm not moving mountains, but I know I'm really gettin shit done over on my end. I'm quite a ways from where I wanna be, but when I actually set aside time and focus on real goals, I achieve the fuck outta them.
I'll probably get drunk this weekend for the last time until around Thanksgiving, cuz this Summer is nothing but work and gym for me. I don't do shit half assed.
I take more of the actually gaming portion of Xbox a lot more serious as opposed to the forum posting since I'm actually speaking with you and or whomever I'm playing with but I see your point. It's definitely valid, but douchebags like Davo and PM have no importance to me to be honest.
Niggas like you, Lahey, Pistol, NV, Windex, Tk, and quite a few others of course will definitely have some type of impact on my life.
I take more of the actually gaming portion of Xbox a lot more serious as opposed to the forum posting since I'm actually speaking with you and or whomever I'm playing with but I see your point. It's definitely valid, but douchebags like Davo and PM have no importance to me to be honest.
Niggas like you, Lahey, Pistol, NV, Windex, Tk, and quite a few others of course will definitely have some type of impact on my life.
but douchebags like Davo and PM have no importance to me to be honest.
heed what they have to share and you'd feel differently
Speak less, as pointed out by others (some of which need to do the same, for other reasons) already. you seem to strengthen your hindering beliefs the more you do; you can't listen over the amounts of speech you spew.
Lahey's posts are def things to considerI got a job as a COOK. Why?? Because I could EAT.
Vertical integration 
Believe me, when I post a fat wall of text and get fat walls of replies, I read all of them. I'm not dismissing any of you, even Davo and PM to be really honest. I'm definitely listenin to ya niggas but ya niggas needa worry a lot less, you peeps sound like my parents sometimes and it just gets to me as all lmao.
An exhaustive list of humans who worry about you in any way:
You'll be fine kid, like they said, I just hope that we lit a fire under your ass to improve yourself.
I did love that read but i must say some of your beliefs are so incredibly ignorant i'm not sure if you're trolling or not: (stealing justifications, and the homosexuality stuff you've mentioned in the past)
Don't let these people tell you the trap is dead!!!
trappin never dies!!!!!!!
But in all seriousness plat.. you're young man... whole life is ahead of you. if what you're saying is true about this whole turn around.. good for you. You don't gotta prove nothing to no one on here man lol. Go live your life and succeed
PS. TRAPPIN AINT DEAD
Kiss me :*
On the real though, shit has been so rough :( Been SO sick, haven't eaten since Sunday, lost over 10lbs, probably don't even have any stomach acid left with how much I vomited/dry heaved over the last couple days, perpetual headache and can hardly sleep.
Someone kill me.
u look at that in the mirror everyday and have the gall 2 wonder publicly how n y ur sex drive's ben killed?
