The Official Girl Help/Issue/Talk Thread 2: Re-Entry

in reply to DIAPERDOMMY

butt surely u realize that resigning ur total life ambitions to what amounts to always having a diaper and binkey crutch-machine to rely on in "securing a job future" and grabbing at this fantastic tool u've made up for urself in this conversation like its a weird swiss army knife - security blanket hybrid, and giving ur thumb-in-mouth justification 4 having already shelled-out those big bux 4 that bourgeois training, that managerial business degree or w/e it was u finally got, doesn't in point of fact make you any less laughable than thf's most voluminous shit poster there, and it only makes the whole thing even funnier that u made a post like that as if ur even slightly less stupid than he is because u/rparents paid that money to keep ur diaper-reserves full for life

You ever given yourself to someone on a intellectual and spiritual level and they just ripped you apart? Well try doin that multiple times over and over again since your Freshman year. Add in ya closest cousin OD'ing on coke and bein so in fuckin shock you start emulating him through yourself as a person cuz you miss him so damn fuckin much.

I was a year ahead in Math and Science. Regular honor's classes and AP classes mixed with two Varsity sports your Junior year and finally you gettin some pussy and acknowledged for being somethin other than a good kid/nerd/gamer. Got caught up in the social aspect really badly and thought people were my friends and it just didn't turn out that way. I was naive as hell but didn't know any better.

Now with that being said, imagine all of that being taken away from you and your entire peer support structure turning on you for various reasons after gettin accepted into colleges you applied too along with family issues that you probably never had to deal with cuz you're White with real nonchalant parents who wouldn't put ya ass outside on the curb with ya shit breathin down your neck about school and shit.

Toss in some recreational drug use and drinkin quite often and you get ya self a nice little equation for a mental breakdown. Was outta school for a month the following term after I failed 6 classes, got kicked off both sports teams, put in regular classes that didn't challenge me, and got kicked outta my crib for a bit until I sobered up on my own accord.

Not too mention the learning environment I was in was horrendous. The school building was an open concept design, with maybe like 6-10 total classrooms with an actual door and actual walls to it. Other class rooms were divided on the sides by a 13-15 FT cubicle divider, no door for either class and the wall on the outside of the first class was the lockers that lined the halls. You could walk into and out most of the classrooms, you could hear what was being taught in the next room or the room down the entire hall depending on the volume of the teacher, and you could throw shit over the walls since the ceiling was like 20-25 FT high. Shit was a fucking joke. I'll try and find some pictures but it was not the place to craft young minds if you asked me. I definitely took advantage cuz I was a shit teenager, but still was a complete joke.

Any who, learned shit the hard way which you never had to do and probably never will. You don't know what workin hard is until you tryna feed ya self and find a place to sleep at night with no type of income comin in.

That's the thing, you think you know me when you don't know shit.

I was forced out of my house, it wasn't a fuckin option. I had no choice.

I'm not sayin you're at fault for not living a hard life but take you shit you got for granted man damn. I would've killed to have gone to a legitimate highschool that had actual fuckin classrooms. You know how hard it is to sit there and focus when you got people in the hallways yellin, fightin, etc on top of the dickheads in ya classroom and the ones next to you throwin shit over the walls and just fuckin around hard body. Trust, we did not have the same high school experience and I had worked my ass off Freshman year up until my popularity spiked Junior year during bball season.

You ever been to a practice you had to go to when you spent the night sittin in a 24 hour McDonald's askin for 25 cents here and there just put somethin in ya stomach so you don't faint the next day? Nah man.

You sit on this pedestal like you moved mountains to get to where you're at, I'm lucky I'm still even alive with some of the shit I been through on top of consistently abusing myself mentally and physically.

I cherished school at one point in my life, absolutely infatuated with the thought of walkin with my class, tossin up my cap and gown, and goin to a really nice college and livin the student life but unfortunately the way my life was set up at the time it was damn near impossible to even contemplate takin out a loan and doin the 9-5 when I didn't have a bed to sleep in at night.

You hate on me for no reason at all as well when I haven't (don't think I have and apologies if I had) attacked you personally over some stupid shit.

two things and then i'm done with this 

1.) you called me a dipshit and said you were smarter than me, so i obviously had to defend myself

2.) all of this blows, but i am not entirely sure i believe all of it. sorry

laughed so goddam hard. 

comparing totally different living situations brah. I would be extremely careful to call your situation a "hardship" when daddy paid for you to go to those number 1 high schools. Even if daddy isn't paying for your college (he obv is) your situation was already infinitely better than Platanos before college came into the picture.

 people go for stupid degrees that only those with no true skill sets get. Business oriented degrees are not only hilarious, but extremely over saturated.