Well I'm on cloud 9! We were skyping for about an hour and talking about life things, had to run to get the kids from school so I lied and told him I had to pee and be right back. In the car pick up line this happened over text:
me: "I'm really bad at this, I don't like talking about Israel because it scares the crap out of me because I'm in love with you. :x"
him: "I know that is what u want to hear. I love u too."..."U taking a shit?"
:suicide: got back and briefly talked about it, couldn't tell what he meant (language sometimes is an issue) and had to confirm what he meant. He was like "of course I love you. I wouldn't be skyping this much if I didnt." I told him about chickening out since November since he's only said to me that "he really really likes me". Too bad it's 5fuckingam or we could have talked more. He's not emotional/romantic person and seems to fall back on "you KNOW" (ie you know I miss you, you know I like you, etc). He thought I already knew his feelings, wtf. But we both signed off with "love you bruh". XD
Totally and completely turned my night (and week) around. I've been a total emotional nightmare this week largely because of not knowing where we stood completely (if on the same page).
Eta: been involved since October... So 5 months? I felt it within like 4wks though and haven't felt this strong of a connection since the first time I fell in love. That's why I've been so fucking nervous with this, I decided for once to be completely vulnerable and go with it. Hopefully it's the right decision. :)