Just went into the back room of my parents house and dusted off the 360 and put Halo 3 in. I just played my first game of Halo 3 in 5 years. Man that first game was poor.
What's on your mind?
Just remembered that my Dad was the one who got me into Halo. He bought me Halo: CE in 2004 when i was 11 years old, but he could rarely play with me because he gets motion sickness pretty easily, and Halo being one of the initial first person game he had played.... he couldn't play with me much because of that. Anyway... just a thought i had.
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My dog died this morning, we had to remove his eye a few weeks back and he was already deaf. Then this morning he had a series of some sort of attacks so we decided to put him down, he was done.
Cried like a little bitch.
Here's a video I made with footage of him when I first practiced with Sony Vegas to start making montages, it's hilariously over dramatic which is kinda fitting now.
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He was 10. With Bouvier des Flandres, being blonde/fawn is a mutation, the 'purebreds' are black and live 10 to 12 years. So for a blonde one to get to 10 is quite good.
how do i stop being so mad at myself for being stupid, and instead encourage myself to be smart? how do i not beat myself up for mistakes, and look at what i did right positively? because the mistakes are what costs and devastates me, and the positive outcomes are so miniscule and infinitesimal to me that it's like what i should be doing at all times. maybe it's my upbringing. maybe i'm cursed to be mediocre at best and downright embarrassing to everyone involved at worst. maybe i'm burdened with too much shame. either way, i'm sick and tired of being unhappy with slow progress and awful results. i'm sick and tired of trying to analyze myself and fix myself and figure out what went wrong when other people (and i hate comparing myself to other people, i know other people introspect, i know other people work hard to be where they are and i'm just projecting my insecurities and stupid little protective superiority) seem so happy go lucky and don't ever second guess themselves regardless of whether they're wrong or right. i want to be better, and i know it's not instant and i know i have to work hard. but why does it seem like i'm always doomed to fail REGARDLESS of the work and effort i put in?
i shouldn't believe in luck or curses but i feel cursed. and fuck a self-fulfilling prophecy. i can fight the thoughts but i can't fight results.
Don't beat yourself up about stuff like that. You're only gonna find some peace when you're ok with not only other people but yourself too.
well yeah I don't like Twitter either another reason I'm not making one lol point is... someone should ask to see what's going on. if you wanna make this about my not existing social media accounts then peace the fuck out hahaha holy shit you guys are fucking worthless, like of all things to respond to that's your best fucking ice breaker hahaha
if anyone seriously wants to tweet at 343 for me about the rumors of mcc updates, I'll love you forever
Is "Anonymous Official" a real or spoof (fake) Anonymous youtube channel? Or are they all fake? https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA071Pllf2wk-B8Rkwt47bQ
well yeah I don't like Twitter either another reason I'm not making one lol point is... someone should ask to see what's going on. if you wanna make this about my not existing social media accounts then peace the fuck out hahaha holy shit you guys are fucking worthless, like of all things to respond to that's your best fucking ice breaker hahaha
if anyone seriously wants to tweet at 343 for me about the rumors of mcc updates, I'll love you forever
Maddy, how u doin bruv
Dawwwgggg. Still out here having some hard times bro : / Just trying to work towards something better, but I won't bore with all that stuff. Glad you dropped through, hopefully you're much better off than myself. As you can probably tell I'm not around all that much anymore, haha.