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August 19, 2015 - 1:40pm

Not sure if this will be interesting to anyone else, but I feel like I've finally found an accurate description of what I've been dealing with for basically my entire life. There are a lot of very specific thought processes and the quotes in this article are literally the paraphrased words I've been telling everyone this entire time. It even goes into the EXACT health things that I've dealt with and talked about at length on here over the years if anyone remembers reading those posts.

 

idk, I just feel like this might actually be the thing that I have:    http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20150818-what-is-it-like-to-have-never-f...

August 19, 2015 - 2:14pm
So basically what you're getting at here is that if Hannibal ever gets a fourth season, you should join the cast and then they can do some more of the "killer of the week" episodes. 
August 19, 2015 - 2:32pm
I feel sorry for you if you are experiencing the same problems and difficulties they are describing in the article. I'm guessing you have been in contact with a therapist regarding this? This is probably not the response you were hoping for, but I'm going to ask anyway. Have you tried MDMA? If so, how would you describe the experience?
In reply to Empty
August 19, 2015 - 3:28pm

I'll have to brush up on my acting skills lol.

 

@lambee: It's fine, as you can probably imagine based on the article that it's not something that bothers me in that sense. I'm not sure what response I "wanted" but I just read this and went, "holy..." so I wanted to share :)

Yea I've dabbled in X and molly although the "good feelings" were pretty much all physical sensations. Being touched physically felt good, didn't notice much difference on the mental front. 

Also no on the therapy thing. Never seen a therapist or psychologist in my life, although I've gone through periods of curiosity.

In reply to XYOX
August 19, 2015 - 3:38pm

 

for real tho ^

In reply to XYOX
August 19, 2015 - 4:32pm
Well, I didn't want to give the impression that I viewed your thread like a reddit "I'm a Alexes, Ask Me Anything" kind of thread. If you have been struggling with a sense that you have been somewhat disconnected with the people around you, then I don't know how it was for you to discover a possible and reliable explanation to it. The cautious approach was in the interest of not hurting your feeling, which is a bit ironic. But then again, I don't want to be disrespectful. And this is becoming a bit meta and weird for me now...

I don't think I have read any of your posts regarding your health or your situation. Seek help with an expert, if you haven't already. Wish you all the best, XYOX!
In reply to Lambee
August 19, 2015 - 4:52pm

Lambee said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
Well, I didn't want to give the impression that I viewed your thread like a reddit "I'm a Alexes, Ask Me Anything" kind of thread. If you have been struggling with a sense that you have been somewhat disconnected with the people around you, then I don't know how it was for you to discover a possible and reliable explanation to it. The cautious approach was in the interest of not hurting your feeling, which is a bit ironic. But then again, I don't want to be disrespectful. And this is becoming a bit meta and weird for me now...

I don't think I have read any of your posts regarding your health or your situation. Seek help with an expert, if you haven't already. Wish you all the best, XYOX!

 

Haha yea thanks, I really didn't want it to come across like some AMA bullshit. Although it's not a "sense" of being "somewhat" disconnected. I literally don't feel anything other than SUPER broad and basic things. Aside from basic primal instincts, I pretty much keep a steady line of apathetic indifference. I don't miss people, I don't get happy or excited, I don't get sad or devastated etc. As for hurting my feelings, that's not even something that can happen rofl.

 

The part in the article where the interviewee was saying that his relationship was a conscious effort was exactly the conversation I had when I broke up with my girl earlier this year. I didn't buy her gifts because I wanted to do something nice for her, I bought her gifts because that's what people in relationships do, and I only know that because other people have told me (and I don't live under a rock, but the point is it wasn't something that originated with me and how I felt because well...I didn't).

August 19, 2015 - 5:05pm
I wanted to say it sucks to be you, but I guess you wouldn't know what that feels like (emotionally of course, not literally).
August 20, 2015 - 12:26pm

Well I mean it kinda sucks because it's boring. There's no excitement or ups and downs. It's good because it's steady and stable, but sometimes I lose interest to the point that I'm suicidal. The thought process isn't that living is hard or woe is me or anything like that whatsoever. It's more like, "Meh...this whole living thing is so overrated. Boring as fuck, I don't wanna play this shit."

It's like I don't experience the things that make being a human being cool or worthwhile.

August 20, 2015 - 12:31pm
kill yourself
August 21, 2015 - 12:07am
I will smack your hand so hard pm
August 21, 2015 - 1:01am
Have you tried harder drugs and alcohol?
In reply to PM
August 21, 2015 - 6:30pm

PM said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
kill yourself

In reply to BxSouljah
August 21, 2015 - 6:33pm

I mean I've fucked around with alcohol/weed/acid/shrooms/molly/coke/ketamine/various painkillers and that's it I think.

Not sure if any of those are hard to you lol.

August 21, 2015 - 9:11pm
every day it seems like a new mental illness is invented. myself and i'm sure many others on this forum share this problem. i really doubt it is an actual illness. i think it's just a defense mechanism against depression. my mom has always told me since i was little, "you never get excited for anything."
August 21, 2015 - 10:39pm
Do you like Huey Lewis and The News?
In reply to XYOX
August 21, 2015 - 11:19pm
XYOX said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?

I mean I've fucked around with alcohol/weed/acid/shrooms/molly/coke/ketamine/various painkillers and that's it I think.

Not sure if any of those are hard to you lol.

Yeah that was pretty much what I was referring to.  You're only missing heroin, meth, crack, oxys, and ecstasy. 

In reply to Sky
August 22, 2015 - 3:24am

Sky said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
Do you like Huey Lewis and The News?

TRY GETTING YOUR RESERVATION AT DORSIA NOW, YOU FUCKING STUPID BASTARD!!!!!!

August 22, 2015 - 3:58am
You really should try therapy. It helps to get some outside perspective. Or don't, and just count down the days until you off yourself.
August 22, 2015 - 5:15am
I bet a lot of people here have experience in the same kind of thing - not on such high level though, implying that you writing all this means you think about the matter frequently. Do something you've never done before, try to meet new people or new hobbies, new places etc. I often get the feeling I'll never experience anything new or exciting anymore so I can kind of relate to this. Also, I'm pretty sure drugs and alcohol change nothing here lol. Windex has a point, it doesn't hurt to try therapy, I guess.
In reply to BxSouljah
August 22, 2015 - 11:36am
BxSouljah said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
XYOX said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?

I mean I've fucked around with alcohol/weed/acid/shrooms/molly/coke/ketamine/various painkillers and that's it I think.

Not sure if any of those are hard to you lol.

Yeah that was pretty much what I was referring to.  You're only missing heroin, meth, crack, oxys, and ecstasy. 

Nah, got ecstasy and oxys in there lol

@sky: Never heard of em

 

August 22, 2015 - 2:22pm
>he hasn't done heroin, meth, and crack
August 23, 2015 - 2:12pm
Fake it.
In reply to PM
August 23, 2015 - 5:29pm

PM said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
>he hasn't done heroin, meth, and crack

Maybe he should try?

August 23, 2015 - 7:02pm
cause that'll make him feel something in sober time?
August 24, 2015 - 8:50am
@Status: was meth any good?
August 24, 2015 - 12:28pm
I would talk to a doctor and stay sober. Otherwise research the shit out of it and go from there.
August 24, 2015 - 1:29pm
are you at least good with money
August 24, 2015 - 2:04pm
What triggered it? You must've had happy and sad times growing up. When did it stop?!
In reply to Axilo
August 25, 2015 - 7:30pm

@PM: ya

 

Axilo said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
What triggered it? You must've had happy and sad times growing up. When did it stop?!

Eh, not really tbh. It's pretty much as far back as I can remember. Maybe after like age 7 or something idk

August 26, 2015 - 2:58am
you're set
August 26, 2015 - 3:00am


4.
harden into a solid or semisolid state.
"cook for a further thirty-five minutes until the filling has set"

 

(with reference to a person's face) assume or cause to assume a fixed or rigid expression.

August 26, 2015 - 3:05am

"emotion refers etymologically to movement[. to a sense of] throwing off. out of the line of movement. It's movement that disintegrates, it's the reaction that one calls catastrophic." 

In reply to WiNDeX
August 26, 2015 - 7:58am
WiNDeX said in What Is It Like To Have Never Felt An Emotion?
Or don't, and just count down the days until you off yourself.
The thing is; this doesn't sound like too bad of an option
In reply to Tarzan
August 26, 2015 - 2:00pm
then do it already
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